FINDING MYSELF

YOU KNOW WHEN YOU GO THROUGH OUT YOUR WHOLE LIFE FROM TEENS AND UP TRYING TO FIND SOMETHING YOUR GOOD AT , AND EVERYTHING YOU TRY TO DO PEOPLE TELL YOU THAT YOU SUCK AT IT SO YOU TRY SOMETHING ELSE AND AGAIN PEOPLE TELL YOU THAT YOU SUCK AT IT .

THAT WAS MY WHOLE CHILDHOOD AND TEEN YEARS GROWING UP THEN I STARTED GETTING INTO MUSIC FIRST IT WAS GUITAR THEN PIANO THEN THE HARMONICA AND THEN I FOUND IT 7 YEARS AGO IT WAS SINGING STARTED DOING IT LITTLE BY LITTLE THEN DOING IT MORE AND MORE EACH DAY UNTIL SOMETIMES I FOUND MYSELF NOT WANTING TO GET OFF THE INTERNET AND JUST KEEP RIGHT ON SINGING , I KEPT FINDING ALL THESE KARAOKE SITEES TO GO ON TO NONE OF THEM FIT MY STYLE ONLY TRULY AND UNIQUE ONE THAT FIT MY STYLE OF SINGING WAS BIX ON YAHOO AND THEN IT GOT TAKEN DOWN DAMN YOU YAHOO FOR THAT ,  AND THEN THIS SITE SINGSNAP , I JOINED IT I AND SOME PEOPLE LISTENED TO MY SINGING AND COMMENTED GOOD STUFF ON IT AND THE STAFF HAD ME GET MY FRIENDS FROM BIX AND KSOLO ON IT SO I DID , HELL MAN MONTHS LATER MY FRIENDS FROM BIX AND KSOLO THAT JOINED SINGSNAP WAS THE ONLY ONES LISTENING TO ME ANY MORE , THEY JUST WANTED ME TO JOIN SO THEY COULD GET ME TO GET MY FRIENDS WHO HAD MONEY ONTO SINGSNAP SO SINGSNAP COULD BECOME MORE POPULAR KARAOKE SITE BECAUSE OF THE FABULOUS SINGERS I BROUGHT TO SINGSNAP WHO ARE STILL AND ALWAYS WILL BE MY TRUE FRIENDS .

BUT I LET IT SLIDE FOR 5 YEARS I ENJOYED SINGING AND TALKING AND HANGING OUT WITH MY FRIENDS BUT THEN I STARTED TO SEE SOME DISTURBING STUFF WHEN I GOT SOME NEW FRIENDS WHO JOINED , THEY WERE BEING ABUSED BY MEMBERS WHO FOR SOME REASON THOUGHT THEY CAN AND COULD SING BETTER AND HAD TO GO AROUND JUDGING PEOPLE LIKE SIMON COWELL EVEN HAD THE NERVE THE VERY GALL TO SAY TO ONE OF MY FRIENDS WHO HAS A BEAUTIFUL VOICE AND CAN SING LIKE AN ANGEL FAT AND UGLY AND TOLD HER TO STOP USING THE CAM BECAUSE SHE’S MAKING EVERYBODY SICK TO LOOK AT HER UGLINESS WELL WHEN I SAW THAT I REPORTED IT AND GUESS WHAT NOTHING HAPPENED TURNS OUT THAT IF YOUR A FAVORITE OF STAFF OR ADMIN ON SINGSNAP YOU CAN PRETTY MUCH GET AWAY WITH EVERY THING UNDER THE SUN ON SINGSNAP, SO I SAID SOMETHING ABOUT IT ON MY PAGE ON SINGSNAP , 3 DAYS LATER I GOT SUSPENDED FOR LIFE NEVER TO RETURN , WITH NO EXCUSE WHY I WAS SUSPENDED OR ANY EMAIL WHAT SO EVER EXCEPT A ANONYMOUS PERSON ON FACEBOOK TELLING ME TO GET MYSELF OUT OF ANYTHING ON FACEBOOK OR ANY BOARDS THAT HAD TO DO WITH SINGSNAP , AND THAT INCLUDED MUSIC NETWORKS THAT LISA AND BIG DAWG AND TERRIE HAD BECAUSE THEY USED SINGSNAP SONG TRACKS AND AS I HAVE SAID YOU NO LONGER ARE A SINGSNAP MEMBER , WE DON’T WANT YOUR KIND ON SINGSNAP ANY MORE , FURTHER MORE YOU CAN’T SING THAT GOOD ANYWAYS .

I WAS DEVASTATED AND HURT BUT i got over it quickly ya know why, because singsnap even though some faithful righteous members think so is not the only karaoke site on the internet and it’s not the only way to sing on the internet either I am living proof of that , 2 months afterwards though i was getting shit from some of them their thinking if I am not a member of singsnap then I am not going to sing on such sites as  youtube and facebook and twitter , lol they didn’t and don’t care about myspace singsnappers don’t think myspace is hip any more so they tried like hell to get me to stop singing , 

BUT THAT WON’T WORK AND NEVER WILL AGAIN I AM A SINGER AND LOVER OF MUSIC AND NOTHING OR NOBODY EXCEPT GOD ALL MIGHTY CAN GET ME TO QUITE DOING WHAT I LOVE DOING .

AND THAT’S WHY I WROTE THE TITLE FINDING MYSELF BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT I DID FIND , NEVER BELIEVED I COULD DO ANYTHING RIGHT IN MY LIFE ALWAYS SEEMED LIKE  A FAILURE AT EVERYTHING I DID GROWING UP AND WHEN I FOUND SINGING ON THE INTERNET THAT BECAME MY PASSION IN LIFE AND MY TRUE CALLING .

I FOUND MYSELF I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE A SINGER NOW IT MAYBE BE JUST A KARAOKE PRO SINGER BUT DAMN IT ANYWAYS THAT IS WHAT I AM AND NOTHING I REPEAT NOTHING AND NOOOOOOOOOOBODY IS GONNA TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME , AND I’LL STOP SINGING ON EARTH WHEN I’M DEAD AND GONE AND SINGING IN HEAVEN 😉

SO GET IT IN YOUR HEAD SINGSNAP MEMBERS ESPECIALLY THE ONES WHO POST AND OWN SINGSNAPSUCKS.COM ON HERE AKA WORDPRESS.COM , I AM A SINGER , MAYBE NOTHING TO YOU JUST SOME PHASE YOU GO THROUGH AND A MONEY MAKER FOR TREVOR AND THE STAFF OF SINGSNAP BUT TO ME IT’S MY PASSION AND MY LIFE , 

SINGSNAP WASN’T THE ONLY SITE I WAS SINGING ON HELL MAN THE OTHERS I STILL SING ON EXCEPT FOR KSOLO AND BIX LADYMATIKA SINGS EVERYWHERE AND SINGSNAP.COM MEMBERS I TRULY AM SORRY THAT NONE OF YOU CAN GET ON FANDALISM.COM BUT THAT’S NOT MY FAULT SO GET OVER YOURSELF INTO THINKING I AM THE REASON YOU CANNOT JOIN FANDALISM.COM A PROFESSIONAL ARTIST SITE BUT THAT’S THE WAY THE COOKIE CRUMBLES .

SOME OF US HAVE A TALENT FOR MAKING FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE AND GETTING THEM TO LIKE THEM AND THEN THERE ARE THE ONES WHO THINK THEIR SHIT DON’T STINK AND THEY OWN EVERYTHING THEY TOUCH EVEN IF IT DOESN’T BELONG TO THEM , WELL SOME OF YOU MEMBERS CAN’T OWN FANDALISM.COM SPACE AND THAT’S JUST TOO BAD .

YOU GOT SINGSNAP AND ACCORDING TO SINGSNAPSUCKS.COM PEOPLE YOU DON’T NEED ANYTHING ELSE BUT SINGSNAP 

MEANWHILE LADYMATIKA – ME OF COURSE IS ENJOYING MY FANS AND FRIENDS AND FAMILY COMMENT ON MY GIFTED SINGING THAT ONE OF YOU MEMBERS OF SINGSNAP SAID I SUCK AT .

SORRY BUT I FOUND MYSELF AND I AM A SINGER , A ASS KICKING KARAOKE PROFESSIONAL SINGER , 

AND THE ONLY PERSON I CAN TRULY THANK FOR ME BEING THAT IS MY FRIEND AND MENTOR JAY AKA VISIONS ON SINGSNAP WITHOUT HIS TEACHINGS NOBODY PROBABLY WOULD BE ABLE TO HEAR ME SING BECAUSE WHEN I FIRST STARTED OUT SINGING I SANG TOO LOW AND HAD TO HAVE A BIG LOUD MIC AND NOW THANKS TO JAY’S TEACHINGS MY NEIGHBORS CAN HEAR ME SINGING AND I LIVE IN A VALLEY LOL 

SO THANK YOU JAY YOU TRULY ARE AND ALWAYS WILL BE GOD’S GIFT TO ME 😉